Monday, January 21, 2019

My own brother molested me

I'm posting this because there is something that I really want to ask.
I am very confused right now, so please don't curse or swear at meㅠㅠㅠ
I've been having a hard time and after carefully thinking about it, I decided to post this.
I'm a 19 years old who has a younger brother who's 16 years old. 
I've been trying to forget it all, thinking that he did that out of curiosity because he's currently going through puberty. But it's not as easy as it sounds.
Sometimes, I thought it was just a dream.. But yesterday, I was half awake when I felt someone under my blanket and tried to open my pajamas. It was my brother.
I asked him what was he doing, and he said he was looking for a towel. But why was he looking for a towel under my blanket..? It doesn't make any sense.
I let it go and this morning, before we went to academy, I told him to have some conscience. I told him that I was aware of what he did, but I just let it go. I told him to repent on what he's doing.
Once we got home later in the night, I asked him to explain what exactly happened last night.
But all he did was avoiding the question, which made me mad. In the end, he admitted that he did it out of curiosity. 
How could a brother do that to his own sister? I am really upset and embarrassed. This is too much for me to handle. I can't stop tearing up.
I seriously wish I could disappear right now.
Are there any guys here? Is this normal? I just can't understand, how could he see me like that..
I have never written any posts in Pann before. I know that I'm posting this as an anon, but I still can't help but feel embarrassed. Please give me some advices.
Shall I just forget about it.. Or shall I tell this to my parents.
Just the thoughts of him touching me, whether if he did that in his sleep or not, is driving me crazy.
There are times where I can't tell apart whether if it's just a dream or not.
I feel embarrassed and tired at the same time. I really hate him, I don't even want to hear his voice.
What should I do?


1. [+219][-10] Unexpectedly, there are a lot of family members or relatives who molest or even sexually abuse their own family. Most of them keep quiet about it because they're still family, and in the end they never get arrested. This proves that you should not trust men, even if they're your family.

2. [+192][-6] You should tell your parents as soon as possible.. You will regret it and it becomes a trauma if you don't solve this problem right now..

3. [+154][-3] I think talking it to your parents would be the best option..

4. [+69][-2] Why do men do this..? They may be curious, but I'm sure they know that is not the right thing to do..

5. [+62][-0] When I was in elementary school, my older brother would pull off my underwears and see me under there when I was asleep.. He didn't do anything because he knew that I was asleep. But I didn't tell my mom and just let it go, as the result.. I can't stop thinking about it even by now. And was it 2 years ago.. or something, we had a big fight.. Almost physically.. But suddenly, I remembered about this incident and told him about it because I was really upset. His facial expression changed and he went speechless. It makes me realize that the one who did it may forget about it and go on with his life, but the victims will never be able to forget about it for the rest of their life.. What I'm saying is, you better talk about it with your parents as soon as possible..
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Let's play an upvote-downvote game based on things that you can relate at school

Have you ever worn your P.E pants rolled up inside of your long padding?
Upvote if you have
Downvote if you have not


1. [+351][-18] Have you ever farted at school? I have..

2. [+315][-71] Have you ever taken a dump at school?

3. [+296][-82] I've pretended to study during lunch breaks because I had no friends to play with..ㅜㅜ

4. [+180][-14] Have you ever talked about your homeroom teachers behind their backs?

5. [+141][-24] Have you ever burped when you lie forward on your desk?

6. [+131][-10] Have you ever worn your uniform on top your P.E uniform because you were too lazy to change clothes..

7. [+127][-36] Have you ever played your phone secretly in class?

8. [+92][-3] Have you ever slept in the middle of a class..?

9. [+79][-135] Have you ever used a lip tint then used your finger to even it and wiped your finger on the wall?

10. [+78][-43] Have you ever purposely passed by your crush's class just to see him?
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What are the most fascinating surnames that you have ever seen?

'Yo Dayoung'

'Ho Hyunjoo'

For me, it's Yo and Ho. It think those are really unique last names.


1. [+275][-5] The rarest last name in South Korea is Jeub. There are only four families with this last name in South Korea.

2. [+124][-8] Paeng

3 [+117][-8] Pi

4. [+105][-6] This is so freaking funny..ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
'Ong. I have never seen any Ongs besides Ong Seong Woo, so far'
ㄴMy teacher's last name is Ong too
ㄴHow am I supposed to know your teacher's last name..ㅎㅎ

4. [+81][-133] Yook is actually really fascinating too, but Yook Sungjae made it not fascinating anymore.. It somehow has becomes a popular last name right now..

5. [+64][-3] Gae.. I'm not even lying, there are some people with Gae as their last names..

6. [+53][-5] Ong

7. [+38][-8] Ong. I have never seen any Ongs beside Ong Seong Woo so far..

8. [+34][-0] Kwik. It's not Kwak, but Kwik.

9. [+25][-1] Pyeon

10. [+23][-2] Maeng
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The increasing number of Japanese who debuts as Kpop idols

Twice's Mina, Momo, Sana

IZONE's Nako, Sakura, Hitomi

Cherry Bullet's May, Remi, Kokoro

GWSN's Miya

H.U.B's Rui

Nature's Haru

Pentagon's Yuto

NCT's Yuta


JBJ's Kenta

Most of foreigners who debut as Kpop idols are Chinese, followed by Thai, and Japanese.

-Hmm.. Miya is Japanese..?? I had no idea..

-I like Yuta..

-I love you my Takoyaki Prince, Nakamoto Yuta~~<3

-It's because Kpop idols need to go global these days..

-I don't know anyone else besides MiSaMo and Kenta...ㅠㅠㅠ

-I only know SakNakHi, MiSaMo, and Yuta..

-I love Yuto, Yuta, and Kenta..

-Kenta is currently promoting in JBJ95!! For your information, it's not a sub-unit but an official group..

-I really hope for that guy from Pentagon to hit big..

-I like these Japanese members.. I don't know why but they all look so pretty to me.. And I think all of them were born with great personalities..

-There are unexpectedly a lot of Japanese who debut as Kpop idols.. But I don't know any of them besides for IZONE and Twice's members..

-It's my first time seeing them all, except for MiSaMo, SakNakHi, Kenta, and Yuta..

-Honestly speaking, I don't know any of them..ㅠㅠ

-Hul.. I had no idea that girl from GWSN was Japanese..
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The Japanese actress who always gets positive reactions from both female and male dominated sites everytime she uploads pictures

Erika Karata, was born in 1997.
When someone posts something like this about Korean celebrities, there would be comments like 'Who cares', 'Not my business', etc in the comment sections.
But I have never seen any negative reactions in posts related about her.

-I really like her..

-She's so pretty..

-It's my first time seeing her and I have to say that she's beautiful..

-She somehow looks like Jung Yumi to me..

-She looks like the female version of Park Bogum..

-Hul.. She's so freaking pretty..

-I think she has the type of face that Koreans really like..

-She reminds me of Park Bogum too..

-She looks like the mixture of Lee Junghyun and Lee Yeonhee..

-She looks like a Korean actress..

-I think she suits the beauty standards in Korea rather than Japan..

-So pretty.. Is she popular in Japan..?

-She looks really pure and beautiful..

-I guess I'm not the only one who thinks of Park Bogum..ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
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The male idol who has the best visual among all the other rookies at the time


These are all press-taken pictures

These pictures are taken by his fansites

VERIVERY's Kangmin

-I agree, out of all the rookies he has the best visual..ㅋㅋㅋ Totally the type of face that's really nice to look at..

-The title could lead a fanwar, but first of all.. He's really handsome. He kinda reminds me of Monsta X's Minhyuk..

-He looks like the mixture of all NCT's members' faces..

-He looks like Jaehyun with Mark's face shape..

-He looks cute..

-He reminds me of Im Siwan..

-He looks like a kid to me, I heard that he's a '03liner.. I bet he's going to look so much more handsome once he turns into an adult..ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

-Ah, VERIVERY was their group's name..? It's my first time hearing it. Anyway, he's really handsome..

-I think he looks cute.. rather than handsome..? He's bursting off with idol vibes..ㅋㅋㅋ

-He gives off NCT's vibes in my personal opinion..

-I think he looks like the mixture of Winwin and Jaehyun..

-Oh.. It's my first time seeing him and he really does look handsome..
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Press-taken pictures of boy groups' visuals at their debut showcase

Infinite's L

ZE:A's Im Siwan

Seventeen's Vernon

VIXX's Hongbin

Got7's Jinyoung

Monsta X's Hyungwon

BTS' Jin

BTOB's Yook Sungjae

Astro's Cha Eunwoo

The Boyz's Younghoon

Stray Kids' Hyunjin

Golden Child's Bomin

VERIVERY's Kangmin

Oneus' Sion

I'm posting this after seeing pictures of Cherry Bullet at their debut showcase..ㅋㅋ
(I'm only attaching the first pictures that pop up as the result on naver)

(go to original post for more pics)

-What's up with Yook Sungjae's stage outfits, though..ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

-I'm claiming Just Right as Got7's debut..

-That guy from VERIVERY is really handsome..

-Why were the stylists so cruel towards Jinyoung..

-What's up with L's hat..ㅋㅋㅋㅋ He looked handsome back then, though..

-I've been living with that hat buried deep in my memories so far..ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

-W.. What happened to God-Jinyoung's hair..?

-Kangmin is totally my type.. He's so handsome..

-Im Siwan and Cha Eunwoo are driving me insane..

-There's this guy named Lee Do in Oneus, he's also really handsome..

-Seokjin looked really handsome during BTS debut showcase..ㅜㅜㅜ

-Kangmin and Eunwoo look the best out of the other pictures in this post..ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

-What's with L's hat..? Was he going with a Peterpan concept or what..?ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

-I literally can't stop laughing because of Jinyoung's hair..ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

-I couldn't recognize Jinyoung..ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

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