On the 14th, a Youtube channel called 'Sebasi Lecture' released a video titled: 'He didn't even get to unbox some things ... Story of how I broke down in tears while sorting my late brother's belongings: Heo Gayoon, singer and the author of 'I Became Most Like Myself in the Strangest Sea'
Heo Gayoon recalled, "My mom called me at the crack of dawn. She told me my brother had suddenly passed away. He worked at a medical company and was incredibly busy with work. He always used to say that once he saved enough money, he wanted to 'live independently' and 'go on a trip.'"
Heo Gayoon lost her brother in 2020. At the time, it was reported that her brother passed away after his condition worsened due to a battle with a chronic illness.
She continued, "It hadn't been long since he had moved out on his own. While sorting through his belongings at his place, his words kept coming back to me. It was so heartbreaking and tragic that he ended up like this after doing nothing but work, without being able to do the things he truly wanted. It hurt even more because all his appliances were brand new. He probably didn't know this would happen. If he had known, he wouldn't have been so frugal or said 'next time' or 'later.' I wondered how regretful he must've felt. So many thoughts went through my mind."
At that time, she fell into the thought that 'life is so empty,' which became the reason she left for Bali.
She said, "The thought of, 'Even if I die tomorrow, I want to live without regrets. I want to do what I want right away, without putting it off' is what allowed me to go to Bali. There, I ate everything I wanted without worrying about others. When I lived in South Korea, I had never even had a coffee at a cafe by myself. I was always afraid of doing things alone, but for the first time, I ate a meal with a bare face and in a tracksuit. It made me so happy." She shared that because of this, her eating disorder disappeared and her mind became more at ease.
Closing her talk, she stated, "I sometimes feel anxious because I don't earn as much money as before and don't have a guaranteed future. But rather than pushing myself to chase something unattainable, I'm living while protecting my daily life." She added, "I hope we all live a life without regrets, no matter what happens tomorrow. Please always take care of your health and enjoy the small happiness in everyday life."
Meanwhile, Heo Gayoon debuted with 4Minute in 2009 and has been active as an actress since the group disbanded in 2016.She recently drew attention by sharing updates about her life in Bali and has published an essay titled 'I Became Most Like Myself in the Strangest Sea.'
1. [+383][-7] When someone suddenly loses a family member, their perspective usually changes. Before losing a family member, I used to think friends and coworkers were important. But after that, family became my top priority. Friends and colleagues are nice to have around, but it’s okay if they aren’t. Except in really bad cases, the people who will stay by your side are ultimately only your family.
2. [+346][-7] In this world, family and health truly come first… Money comes after that. How could money be more important than your life and your family? We work and earn money to live, not to die. I hope he rests in peace. I pray that God’s comfort will be with Heo Gayoon and her family.
3. [+274][-8] I hope you always be happy and only have joyful times from now on… Fighting
